Before Covid-19, I was living my best life after going through a long rough time. While I appreciated it a lot, I could have appreciated it more. Here are some reflections on appreciation.
In September 2019, I said I’d make the most of the final year of my degree. “I hope to make the most out of it. Grab more opportunities, complain less, spread love and focus on positive things, absorb everything I can”, I wrote back then.
And I did. I really did ✨♥️ I romanticized every boring, mundane thing. I thoroughly appreciated all the big, flashy moments. I told all my friends I love them and had a lot of ‘indie youth film’ moments – from helping each other climb up the National Monument in Edinburgh in the freezing cold, to having deep reflections on 2019 by the Newcastle Quayside before the colourful fireworks started bursting in the sky. I looked up so many little facts about Newcastle, the University, and the North East – and compiled a list of must-go places before I leave. I posted a zillion Stories without a care in the world because i was only focused on one thing: ENJOYING THE PRESENT. And I don’t regret a thing.
But it’s impossible to appreciate everything fully – you will always take some things for granted. I didn’t fully appreciate every boring lecture before my physical classes abruptly ended two months before they were supposed to. If I don’t do postgraduate studies, it might’ve been the last university lecture of my life. I didn’t fully appreciate the privilege of working before I lost my regular job as an event photographer due to all events being cancelled. I didn’t fully appreciate writing for the student paper before the editors started posting sad announcements about how this might be the last issue of the year. I didn’t fully appreciate society socials and didn’t make that much effort to hang out with people because who knew they’d be booking flights to go back to their home countries in mid-March? I didn’t fully appreciate jemaah prayers because nobody expected mosques all over the world to be shut down. I didn’t fully appreciate lovely walks under the blue sky without worrying about being infected by a deadly virus, or passing it on to somebody else.
May this pandemic teach us to be more appreciative of the blessings in our lives 🌸 And may we not take things for granted once all of this is over.
“God stopped the entire world with a single miniscule organism. That is all it took. If we aren’t humbled by this, nor reflective, we’ve truly lost out” — raztweets @ twitter